I have always kept my personal life entirely private, but blogging has been an outlet for me to express myself. I hope my story inspires and encourages you.
Have you ever felt disconnected and out of place. Well, after the passing of my little brother I began to spiral out of control and into a place of rage. I felt as though I was living in a world full of depression, anger, and disbelief. I was in a position of disconnect, and I was in need of getting out of this depressing mojo. So I thought of the furthest place I could visit. Oh, my!!! I’m going to Singapore.
I wanted to get out and start over. I needed to get myself back to where I once was. There were many issues I was dealing with before my brother’s passing, and I believe this was the icing on the cake. Not to mention I was in a car accident just a few months later and wrecked my brand new Mercedes, Benz. I wasn’t that upset about the car because I can replace material things, but it was the fact that significant life situations were happening all at once. I felt so numb to the point that if anything else terrible occurred in my life, I wouldn’t even be surprised.
So I decided to pack my bags and got the hell out of town. I did not necessarily want to run away from my problems, but I needed to address them without any distractions. After traveling for 24 hours, I landed in Singapore. The first day I did what I would typically do on any other trip, tour the city. I booked me a two-day hop on-hop off tour. Next, I planned to get lost, find adventure and visit places that inspire me.
As exciting as it is to be on a whole different continent and thousands of miles away from home my one true goal was to find peace and clarity. I began to ask myself a series of questions, “What makes me happy,” “Am I doing those things,” “What steps do I need to take to be happy?” The questions were straightforward and simple. The reality was, I wasn’t pushing myself to my fullest potential due to too many distractions.
Each morning I woke up extra early to workout, ate a proper breakfast, meditated and planned my day accordingly. I thought to myself why can I not carry this same vibe at home in the states. What was holding me back and were my thoughts getting the best of me? Finding peace is one thing but keeping it is another thing. We have all heard the phrase “Let go and let God,” but do we believe it. I think in the mist of wanting to believe, many of us are battling God to control the situation. If you truly believe it in your heart and begin to let God do his work, trust me many of those issues will start to go away.
On the last day of my two-week hiatus, I came back with of plan of winning with happiness. I will follow my heart, do only what makes me happy, and lastly, I am never apologizing for it. If you are ever in need of wanting to get away and you would like to travel solo, Singapore is my recommendation. In my opinion, it is one of the safest places to visit solo as a woman.